Chapter 1
He Threw Me Away Like Something Useless
Aderyn Vael
The desire of a mature Alpha is always raw. Primitive. It knows no pleasantries.
Erick Crownholt is a thirty-year-old Alpha—the leader of the Crownholt clan, ruler of the eastern territory of Silverfall Heights. And I… I have long since lost count of how many times my body has bowed to the dominance of his instincts.
Every thrust, every small bite on my skin, feels like a marking—as if he is claiming his territory. My body trembles beneath him, forced to accept the heat of Alpha pheromones so thick my lungs feel as if they are burning.
I can barely breathe.
Erick knows my body too well. He knows where to press, where to hold back, where to break me slowly. There is no wasted touch. He is skilled, experienced, and cruel in the way he makes me depend on him.
When it is over, he stands beside the bed, his Alpha aura still pressing down on the air. He puts on his clothes calmly—as if I am nothing more than a matter already taken care of.
“Clear my schedule for a week starting tomorrow. I’m taking leave,” he says flatly. “Book two tickets to Mooncrest.”
My heart pounds hard. I shift my still-aching hips, looking at him with the foolish hope that always appears after nights like this.
“Erick…” my voice is soft, fragile. “You’re taking me to the coastal territory?”
He pauses. Just for a moment. Then he turns with the cold gaze of an Alpha. “I’m going with Nathelia.”
The world stops.
My smile freezes. My wolf instinct curls in fear. I lower my head, pressing down the pain gnawing at my chest.
“Very well, Alpha Crownholt,” I finally say, using the title that always reminds me of the distance between us.
I am an orphan. No clan. No protector.
In my first year at the academy, my unclaimed blood and my overly striking face provoked Mirelle Crownholt’s jealousy—Erick’s younger sister. She was a female Beta with full authority on campus. The bullying destroyed me.
One of my ears was damaged. My little toe was crushed. My skin was nearly burned by cigarette butts. They recorded everything. Uploaded it to the inter-clan network. The scandal exploded.
It was Erick who appeared and took me away, broken.
He spoke to me gently, “Don’t be afraid. I won’t let anyone hurt you again.”
He took me his home, and gave me flowers and a small cake.
As a clanless orphan, I had never even had a birthday cake before. So that small gift felt like the world. Like acknowledgment. Like a mark.
That night, I gave everything to him—my virginity, my loyalty, my instincts.
Now, all I can do is smile bitterly. How foolish I was.
For four years, I went along with him in every intimate moment. Only to realize that, from beginning to end, I was nothing more than his mistress.
The woman he truly loved had always been Nathelia Blackmaw—the Beta of the Blackmaw clan. Even though Nathelia had once been married, now that she was divorced and back, she was still Erick’s first choice.
My chest feels tight. I want to say something, but Erica had already left the room, only leave me a black shopping card sealed with the Crownholt clan crest.
Maybe it’s time for me to leave.
With trembling hands, I call a number I once blocked—an Alpha from the Thorneval clan.
“Lord Thorneval,” I say softly. “If I agree to be your mate… will your offer to fund my studies at Wolfspire still stand?”
Silence. Then a low, deep voice filled with authority. “Think carefully. Come to the Thorneval Residence on the 13th, at seven in the evening. We’ll discuss the agreement.”
The 13th. That’s… eight days from now. And maybe… that is the only way out of Alpha Crownholt’s territory.
The next day, I go to work at the Crownholt Group headquarters as usual. But the moment I stepped into the company, I ran into Nathelia.
She looks at me and smiles gently—the smile of a pure-blood Beta, born to become a Luna. She is perfect. Elegant. Strong without effort. I know I have lost.
An Alpha never truly chooses a clanless wolf. We are only a stopover.
I wanted to leave, but she called out to me.
“Miss AderynMr, Crownholt asks that you drive us to the airport at eleven.”
I smile bitterly. He is doing it on purpose. He wants me to remember my place. In the end, Erick and Mirelle are the same. One destroyed my body. The other crushed my heart.
She just stands there calmly, her Beta aura stable and clean. Not aggressive, not pressing, but that is exactly what makes my chest tight. My pheromones—unlabeled, clanless—immediately bow without my realizing it.
“S...Sure.” I answered.
“Before that, could you please buy a few things for my trip?” she says gently.
She hands me a small handwritten list. The writing is neat. Delicate. Just like her—raised with clan education, protected by blood, trained to become a Luna.
I lower my gaze to read it. And one word hits me like a claw to the chest.
Condoms.
My wolf’s breath stutters.