Chapter 1
The Night I Gave Up
Sage’s POV
On Alpha Damon's 26th birthday party, our pack was ambushed by rogues.
And instead of accepting my help, my mate shoved me so hard that my back slammed into the wall.
“Go away. I don’t need your treatment!"
I looked around, aware of the shame. When I stared back at him, I said, “You are in critical condition. Please. For once, Damon. Let me treat you.”
Among everyone in the Moonridge Pack, I was the only one who could handle silver without collapsing from it.
So if Damon needed anyone right now, it was me.
But instead of letting me save him, he looked at me as though I were the real poison in his body.
Damon gave a bitter chuckle, though it was strained with pain.
“If you think treating me will make me fall for you suddenly, you are wrong. Nothing will make me sleep with you and touch you the way you want me to.”
Maybe even while dying, he would still find enough strength to mock me.
“I’m just trying to keep the alpha of Moonridge Pack alive," I whispered.
Damon laughed again. “You are disgusting. Even when you know I feel nothing for you except hatred, you are still desperately obsessed with me.”
He then turned to the nearest male healer. “You. Treat me.”
The healer faltered and glanced at me as though waiting for my permission.
I nodded once and gestured toward Damon.
"Attend to your alpha."
He swallowed and moved to him quickly.
No one stopped me as I turned and walked out of the healer’s den.
—
In my room, I stepped into the washroom, shut the door, and turned the shower on.
I slid down the wall, knees pulling to my chest, and cried with my forehead pressed against the damp stone.
Water ran over my hair, my face, my shoulders, carrying streaks of blood down my arms and legs and into the drain.
Damon’s blood.
I scrubbed at my skin until it hurt, but it was not the blood I wanted gone.
I wished agony could wash away the same way.
A voice suddenly entered my mind through the mind link.
‘Sage?’
My eyes flew open.
It was Matron Vivian, the one who raised me and whom I called mother.
I quickly wiped my face even though she could not see me.
‘Yes, Mother’
‘I need you to prepare more supplements for Nova.’ Her voice came crisp and controlled. ‘I do not need to remind you what basic vitamins your sister needs, right? You know her condition. I trust you will make them immediately.’
I stared at the stream of water hitting the floor.
My body still shook from crying, but I forced my voice to be steady. ‘But that will be difficult in a short amount of time. I have a project in the healer’s den. We are currently formulating a new set of pills, and the trials are in a delicate stage.’
‘What is more important than your sister’s welfare?’ Mother exhaled, then continued. ‘Enough. I will not argue about this. I expect them to be ready, and you will deliver them in five days.’
I opened my mouth to respond, but she cut the mind link before I could say another word.
I stayed silent while water kept streaming down my face.
It took me a few seconds to realize that some of the heat on my cheeks was not from the shower.
I was still crying.
Nova was my younger sister, but we were not related by blood.
I was the daughter of one of the Reed family’s servants. My mother died when I was two.
The Reed family had once had a daughter of their own, but she had been abducted by rogues as a pup.
The loss nearly broke Matron Vivian. Her grief was so deep that people whispered she walked the halls at night hearing a child who was no longer there.
In the end, former Beta, Tomas, chose to adopt me to fill the emptiness that had taken root in their home.
For a while, I was enough.
I had clothes. Tutors. Warm meals. A room of my own. Matron Vivian brushed my hair with her own hands and kissed my forehead when I went to bed.
Beta Tomas Reed brought me small gifts when he returned from border meetings. The pack treated me as the Reed daughter, even if some still remembered whose blood actually ran in my veins.
Then years later, Nova was found and brought home by Damon’s father then, the former alpha.
I thought her return would make my life fuller and I would finally have a sister for real.
Instead, the moment Nova came back, I learned exactly how temporary love could be.
Matron Vivian’s hand no longer lingered on my hair. Her smiles became thinner. Her praise became instructions.
'You are the eldest, so you must understand.'
'Why did you not do as she asked?'
'What if she is taken again because you were careless?'
'You must watch over her wherever she goes.'
Every time I hesitated, Mother had the same answer ready.
'If not for our kindness, you would be long gone.'
So I obeyed.
I convinced myself that love required sacrifice.
But worse things came when I reached nineteen and Nova was eighteen.
My childhood friends left me, especially Damon, and all started to get close with Nova.
And on Damon’s 23rd birthday, someone got me so drunk and I almost didn’t know what I was doing.
But I had heard someone whisper in my ears saying, ‘If you really love Damon, go tell him. He also loves you and is just waiting for you to confess it.’
My foggy brain believed it.
So I told him what I felt in front of everyone, screaming to the world how much I have loved him since we were pups.
Only when everyone got silent that I noticed Damon was holding Nova’s hand. And my being sober slowly vanished when he told me, ‘But Nova and I are mates.’
I was ready to back out, but then Nova suddenly cried and said, ‘I’m rejecting you, Damon. I can’t be mated to you while my sister loves you.’
The next morning, Nova cut her ties with our pack.
But she left a note in her room, saying, ‘I need to leave for Sage’s happiness.’
Mother collapsed to her knees.
Pack members began to make rumors about me.
'What did Sage do to drive her away?'
'Poor Nova. She gave up everything for her.'
Mother cornered me again and again, demanding answers I did not have.
“What did you do to her?”
“How long have you been cruel to her?”
“Why would she leave like that if you had not pushed her?”
I told her over and over that I did not know.
I mind linked Nova, begging her to come back and tell them the truth, whatever truth she meant. She never answered me.
Then, one week later, Damon formally asked for my hand to be his chosen mate.
He was alpha by then.
The whole pack saw it as an honor.
Mother warned me to think carefully, but I had been too foolish.
So I said yes.
But after the marking ceremony, I heard him speaking to his friends.
“Love her? No! I will never love Sage."
I had stopped outside the half-open door when I heard my name.
Then I heard the rest.
“I only asked her to be my chosen mate so the rest of her life would be miserable. She may become Luna, but my love will not be part of that privilege.”
I had gone cold all over.
Not long after that, I discovered our common friends hated me too.
“How can Sage be so selfish?”
“She was already the lucky child. Even adopted, Matron Vivian loved her like her own.”
“And Nova was left with nothing.”
“No wonder she left. Sage was too greedy. She shut Nova out so she could keep everything for herself, and now she even got the alpha.”
I confronted them that day, defending myself.
But they looked at me as though my speaking only proved my guilt.
The worst torture began after I moved into Damon’s packhouse.
We slept in the same room, but he never touched me.
At first, I thought it was anger.
Then I understood he was doing it on purpose, especially that I had learned that their connection had been restored.
He would call Nova at night, never through a mind link, always by phone, so I could hear every word.
—
I turned off the shower and stood.
After dressing up in one of my plain house dresses, I left my room and headed toward the medicine library.
If I could not control my life, I could at least control my work.
Then a mind link brushed against my thoughts.
‘Hello, Sage. How are you?’
I froze. 'Nova?'
She laughed softly. 'Hey, I just want to say you do not need to create those vitamin supplements for me. I told Mother I can just buy them from the human boutiques.'
I was about to answer when she continued.
‘By the way, sister, how are you and Damon?’
For a moment, I said nothing.
I simply stood in the middle of the medicine library.
Maybe before, I had never had the courage to even form the thought I was having now.
But after everything Damon had done, the truth stood so clearly in front of me that I could no longer turn away from it.
I inhaled slowly.
Then I said, ‘Nova, I’m finally rejecting Damon.’